Last Thursday night I had a dream. A dream about you. I rarely dream about someone, no matter how hard I try to. Or no matter how much I claim to like or love a person. But you, why is it you who appeared in my dream so unexpectedly? Those eyes that gazes me deeply. That smile you kept giving me. You make me crazy. You make me fell in love with you in my dreams. Like literally. I know I've been on a ON-OFF crush for you for 8-9 months, but is it really more than that? I don't know. Honestly speaking, I really don't know. The thing is, I don't want to like or love you. I really don't. I don't mind crushing but more than that.... no.... I don't think I'm even worthy of you. Just look at you, you're handsome..(hmm not really), cute, an idiot at times, okay scratch that, an idiot most of the time, smart in your own ways, charismatic, caring, friendly and most importantly, you kept giving me butterflies inside. I always wanted to get to know you more, I always want to talk to you more. I always wanted to spent more time with you. But, I could only dream of it. We are two different worlds apart. You have such good qualities with you, why would you want to be with someone like me? With your big heart, lame jokes that makes you humorous and your beautiful profile, no doubt pretty girls would be after you. Heck! I think they are already in line behind you.. And I bet you won't be able to see me waiting at the end of the line. It feels so much worse than not being able to be seen by an idol, or even see my idol perform live, that I've been crazy for 3 years and more...
Every time we bump into each other, do you know how much that every 'Hi!' or 'Bye' makes me so damn freaking happy and having a hard time to hide it. It's like even for a second, I shine in your eyes. That you are able to see me. But thinking about it, I will just be that another person that pass by in your life or someone you happened to see... I'm socially awkward, big time introvert, average looking, and have a fcked up attitude that doesn't want to care about people much anymore because I don't want to get hurt.. Does a girl like me have to admire you from the sideline? Like you secretly and continue to be a pathetic fool in a one-sided love? Because knowing you more than a senior and me being more than your junior, would REALLY take a miracle... If you have someone in mind, all I can say is that I'm genuinely happy for you and gave my blessing that you could be with the girl of your liking hoping it will last till death do you part. And I best that that girl will be the most luckiest girl in the world to have you as her man... All I can do is be happy for it...POSTED BY ♥th-SHARINAH{: ON Saturday, November 30, 2013 @ 8:16 AM
Last Thursday night I had a dream. A dream about you. I rarely dream about someone, no matter how hard I try to. Or no matter how much I claim to like or love a person. But you, why is it you who appeared in my dream so unexpectedly? Those eyes that gazes me deeply. That smile you kept giving me. You make me crazy. You make me fell in love with you in my dreams. Like literally. I know I've been on a ON-OFF crush for you for 8-9 months, but is it really more than that? I don't know. Honestly speaking, I really don't know. The thing is, I don't want to like or love you. I really don't. I don't mind crushing but more than that.... no.... I don't think I'm even worthy of you. Just look at you, you're handsome..(hmm not really), cute, an idiot at times, okay scratch that, an idiot most of the time, smart in your own ways, charismatic, caring, friendly and most importantly, you kept giving me butterflies inside. I always wanted to get to know you more, I always want to talk to you more. I always wanted to spent more time with you. But, I could only dream of it. We are two different worlds apart. You have such good qualities with you, why would you want to be with someone like me? With your big heart, lame jokes that makes you humorous and your beautiful profile, no doubt pretty girls would be after you. Heck! I think they are already in line behind you.. And I bet you won't be able to see me waiting at the end of the line. It feels so much worse than not being able to be seen by an idol, or even see my idol perform live, that I've been crazy for 3 years and more...
Every time we bump into each other, do you know how much that every 'Hi!' or 'Bye' makes me so damn freaking happy and having a hard time to hide it. It's like even for a second, I shine in your eyes. That you are able to see me. But thinking about it, I will just be that another person that pass by in your life or someone you happened to see... I'm socially awkward, big time introvert, average looking, and have a fcked up attitude that doesn't want to care about people much anymore because I don't want to get hurt.. Does a girl like me have to admire you from the sideline? Like you secretly and continue to be a pathetic fool in a one-sided love? Because knowing you more than a senior and me being more than your junior, would REALLY take a miracle... If you have someone in mind, all I can say is that I'm genuinely happy for you and gave my blessing that you could be with the girl of your liking hoping it will last till death do you part. And I best that that girl will be the most luckiest girl in the world to have you as her man... All I can do is be happy for it...